If i have wings,

I would like to fly in that sky.

But it would be better,

If you can fly with me too.

Sleepover Part 2

Orz i've forgot to write about part 2... have been kinda lazy to write a new post.. this time ain't gonna be long either =\
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So, day 2.
1st thing i noticed when I woke up.. is that my ass hurts because i slept on the rock-hard floor for uh.. 8 hours...


I was like *whoooo~* time to wake up. then i saw 2 bodies still sleepin beside me.. It's Bolxl (yeehung) and keith, still sleeping like babies.. -.-

ROFL @ Bolxl's sleep pose

Oh.. i'll also show u why my ass hurts when i woke up...

The red circle is the place i slept.. and u can see that the place i put my ass has no cushion..
they were suppose to share the cushion -,- ..l.. ROOOAORR >:[

I woke up at 10am..
And these two babies continued sleeping until 1pm in the afternoon.. PIGS!!

After lunch.. we spent the whole day watching cartoons < ROFLOLMAO

I kinda forgot about what we did.. gosh im getting old.

Then at night we slept at 3am.. and thank god.. this time. we slept upstairs..

upstairs = bed = no sleeping on floor = no sore ass next morning !! = *WIN*

xD
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Cheers

Days in keith's house *Part one*

i've been staying in keith's house since yesterday afternoon..

we did gay things together that day until 2am in morning!! we !@#$% and %^& each other until we!@#$%#$%^&

Nuu.. just kidding -,-" actually we're learning japanese, we did that using with google translate <<< LOL
At first Keith, Yeehung and me were just learning 1,2,3 in japanese.. = ichi ,ni , san , yon , go , roku, nana , hachi , kyuu , juu... But then, horror strucked [LOL @horror strucked]

It started to get boring and we started learning bad words in japanese. yeehung and keith started translating " F*** you" "You're gay" "suck my d***" and all kinds of stupid rubbish..

what came out was.. these long complicated japanese words that none of us understand..

and for no reasons.. we laughed like sakais.. then we copied the japanese sentence and pasted it on facebook.. then we LOL'd harder. << cuz nobody knew what we were saying.. >.> they diidn't know that we were scolding bad words at them.

We also watched some comedy movie and cooked some snacks to eat.. we are sure gonna gain weight soon ~.~ Then we slept at 2pm..

The next day. while i wake up at 10am.. Keith and Yeehung continued sleeping until 1pm Orz..

Im kinda tired to continue writing. i'll just continue in part 2 <<< ROFL

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There's a part two for the second day O_O.. that means, more chedapao, more FAILs.. and hopefully some WIN Photos >.>

Fresh Start

* I've found a way to recover my account.. so im using back my old account Orz *


hehe. sorry all, i didn't update my previous blog because i cant login into it anymore. =\
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But I'm back! well, just to update my new blog lar~ teehee...

These few days, people started treating me differently, they started treating me better. I don't know why but, I LIKE IT :)

During this holiday. I got used to being alone, started to feel that, being alone is not so boring and awful after all. [LOL EMO]

But i also got go outing with friends sometimes lah! I hang'd out with jared, dogless, keith, huiquan, huiren, and gay songding. Oh... and last week was the first time going to marina island for me <<< FAIL -.-
Oh and we did some baad things there. for e.g. Breaking into a show house << ROFL -.-

I'll try to upload some pictures orz
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messing with the bed -.-

Got food? << ROFL

I got too high -,-|||

actually there are more photos. but im just being lazy. teeehheeee
I guess dat's all, folks!
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YAY FIRST POST IN NEW BLOG!! << WTF!?

CHANGES!

Hahahahas!! Everyone!!

i had a haircut just now! and i changed my hairstyle..

DAVID BECKHAM HAIRSTYLE!! W00T! (andy lau hairstyle oso sama same)

15th August until 21st August

This week, we got a choir competition for Hari Kebangsaan!~

At 1st the boys are not cooperating, oh well, boys ma~
but in the end they also cooperate a bit bit..

when we are rehearsing i saw this w00t!!!

Oh whitney, what happened to your hairrrr
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Tuesday, back home.. i was going to toilet and i saw something crawling in my kitchen w00ts.. wee something crawling!~

Its a monitor lizard, the size isn't quite big. But FEISTY!
But in the end, it still died.. my grandma killed it.. 0.0!!
she smacked it with a cangkul *bam bam*
then the lizard hid under my fridge..
then my grandma poured boiling water under the fridge, that lizard is "boiled to death"
LOLS anyway here's the picha when it "left" =v=

It made an XD face when it died lols!
死不瞑目 sigh

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Friday, its the day that sang our heart out.. but "ANDY" sing too loud, literally screaming.. and 走音 until.. until HAIZZZ... some other guys oso 走音..

We didn't get any place in that competition.. but i heard we got 87 marks .. quite high liao.. shud feel proud edi..

How Chuan is so patriotic lolx~
and so, the competition ended... but somehow my girl classmates isnt satisfied wit the results tho, dono why =\
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Friday afternoon! went out and ate lunch with jared and douglas.. then went to jared's house.. and ply =v=
this is wat happened, see for yourselves =)

Yeah.. so hardworking, playing psp all day =.=".. oh, that smiley face guy is me xp

Haters, stop hating, start loving..
quitters, stop quitting, start living ..

Aiyoyo

sad lo... everybody having fun at interact installation while i stay at home... maybe they all having great fun..

I WANNA GO T^T!!!but i cant ><"

My PSP

A week ago.. i bought a psp from chee sian > http://cheesian123.blogspot.com/ check out his blog~

the psp i bought is a 3000series psp a.k.a PSP3000
It is piano black in colour.. got minor scratches on its body when i took it from chee sian.. aww sad ='(

took some picha of it... here it is =D

I bought a aluminium case to protect it.. Costs me 60riggit..
(some ppl say money talks, but my money always say goodbye ><")

=V= \/

teehee~ now everynight i sleep very late cuz keep plying this thing xD.. i've got the panda eyes edi @@"

Hey.. if somebody reading this post and you have a nice game in your psp.. pls intro me!! xD

have a nice day.. CHEERS!

its been a long time!~

w00t..  wery long time din update this blog edi...

let's see..
-i bought a psp
-my class got spotchecked

ORZ.. nothing much happened ><" .. the best part is the psp xD hahahahaha!!!!!

明天，去 KL 了咯

明天将会离开这里~ 去到 KL 参加 CAMP 哈哈

有点不舍得这里咧...


有点怕忘了带东西 ORZ

思 • 想

时间过得好快
记忆却停留在我们的脑海中

有些人完全改变 ；
有些人却还是一样。

有些人散得远远的；

有些人却接近，陪伴。

有些人选择放开；
有些人却还紧紧地握着。

我不知道我接下来的路这么走，但我知道我一定会走下去。
不管是有人陪伴，或是一个人，我想。。没关系吧。。

Exam week...

This couple of week... is the tiring exam week... casper felt ever so tired when he gets back home from school after the exam... he squeezed the brain juices he had into the test paper... seriously.. he tried...

casper hates bitches...

and oh... casper found out his bike in a serious condition of damage... will send it for maintenance soon... hope it'll be alright...

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seriously... im quite stressed out... cant sleep at night.. cant wake up in the morning.. wake up feeling so damn shit low.. craps in my head... why'd the world had to be so harsh...

DIAO DIAO DIAO!!!!!

去死吧！啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！

Mr Calvin had a haircut... a very tragic haircut...

Today.. Mr Calvin went for a haircut... he told the stylist to keep the length... DO NOT cut too short.. "oh okay~" the stylist replied. *cut cut cut*, finally the stylist finished the haircut. When Mr Calvin put on his spectacles to see what does his new hairstyle look like, "OH MY GOD !!!" he thought, his fringe (the hair infront) is so short! But he kept his cool. Mr Calvin was all smiles after the haircut, until he reaches home. He quickly rushed and stood in front of the mirror. "SIIGGHH!!!" he sighed loudly. he became depressed because the fringe that he kept for 5months is gone! A sad state he was in. But then he said something to himself "well~ i'll just wait for another 5 months to get my fringe back... and at least, my eye won't get irritated since my long fringe is gone now." And then, he took his phone up, and played a "happy" song. He knows it in his heart, although he may get laughed by his fellow students, his hairstyle is just temporary, it'll grow long and thick again.




Mr Calvin had a haircut... a very tragic haircut... END

Bad luck sia ~~ >.<.

TODAY is the most unlucky day of my ENTIRE LIFE!!!!

-Give a stranger scold
-Give fren fang fei ji
-stung by a bee

-injured my toe... pain ah~ BLEEDING!!!

-both leg blistering(Bubbles)... AAAAH PAIN!!! BCOME BAIKA EDI!!

other than that... i had KFC with my friends... my crazy friends... lols

i cant even walk properly now.. so pain~ i donwan go school~

Plans for the future..=~=

1. find a way to make myself study... get some decent grades... and make it to form 5... try to be in the same class with my friends...

2.Form 5 SPM year... CHIIONG AH! study my heart out... try not to slack (feels impossible).. hope my friend will chiong with me...

3.If i get good SPM results.. i'll either do both of these...
choice a : follow neighbour's son (Kev Ong) go sunway study... taking pharmacy or study culinary arts... =p...

choice b : coz i don have enough money... so i can just go to UTAR at kampar... and hope for a bright future...

4.GET A GIRLFRIEND IN UNI/COLLEGE~~ w0000t~~ the best part... hehehhehe

5.wish i can be successful in my studies and graduate...

6. Find a decent job (and maybe will leave my gf T^T..) ... get enough money and buy my little house... and get myself a little PUPPY~ (to cure loneliness)

disenchanted... disconnect... disappear..

I chosed to be disenchanted.. to be free from these illusion and false belief...

wtf?

To all weirdos...

don come fucking around me and say im bad sucka...

its your own fault that you stuck ur nose into my personal buisness...
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hmm came bac from vacation.. cant say that i enjoyed it...
don really like this vacation...

well im back...
whether all of you haters like it or not... im gonna hang around for a long long time...

Cheers, Homies

Haiz

I want you to know its a little fucked up that I'm stuck here waiting. Tired of sitting and hating and making these excuses... For why you're not around, and feeling sorta useless.. It seems that one thing has been true all along, You don't really know what you've got till its gone... I guess I've had it with you... When you come back I won't be here..

Sunday... always so sien..

sunday... today... i skipped school activities to stay home and sleep...

until the sun shine on my face... syok dao!~ xD

washed my face.. brushed my teeth... then cycle around taman...

*deep breath* just another day in my life...

Everything change so fast sia...

Everything changed so fast... the friends that were in the same class with me last year, now studying in different class... sigh so boring without them..

Some of my friends even left school... and went elsewhere to study...

Some of my friends that are good with me last couple of months... now feels like complete strangers... so distant.. dont even feel like friends... they're just ppl i know...

Last couple of months... ppl that i thought were annoying turns out to be nice friends... no regrets in befriending them...

well.. so far so good... although im quite stressed every now and then... im ok...

Cheers...

have a nice day

Right now

Someone right now is leaving their apartment

Looking down at the street, wondering where their car went

Someone in the car sitting at a signal

In front of a restaraunt, staring through the window

at someone right now with their finger in their teeth

Who could use a little floss

Right across the street

there's somebody on the curb who really needs a jacket

spent half the rent at a bar getting plastered

Now he's gotta walk fourteen blocks

to work at a shop where he's about to get fired.

Someone right now is looking pretty tired

Staring at a laptop trying to get inspired

Somebody... living right across the street

She wrote the best things she's written all week,

but her best friends coughing up blood in the sink,

Can't even think what happened, feeling so confused

And he knows it looks bad but there's nothing he can do,

I wonder what it's like to be right there in his shoes

But no...
I'm just taking it in

Out the window of a hotel bedroom again,

Tommorrow.. I'll be gone I don't know when I'll be back

But in this world everything can change just like that,
Like that..
Just like that..

庐州月

庐州月光 洒在心上

月下的你不复当年模样

太多的伤

难诉衷肠

叹一句当时只道是寻常


庐州月光 梨花雨凉

如今的你又在谁的身旁

家乡月光

深深烙在我心上

却流不出当年泪光

0.0 ??

hmm... my grandma just now ask me why today why smiling at home so much, since i don smile that much at home.. she asked "what is so funny? did anything happy happen?" lols..

actually i oso dono why i smiling.. maybe i thinking about something nice gua..

seriously... i think im smiling without any specific reason...

maybe ki siao edi... =P..

Cheers from bamboo-lidi-man XD

Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here  ;)

Hmm... :)

This few days, i feel refreshed... feel so light... no weights on my shoulder... no problems in my head...

Everything just felt so clear... 原来放下以前的问题过后，感觉那么好。。。

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i will not hate... i will not hold any grudge...

I will simply MOVE ON... Maybe this is the best for all of us.. cheers.. no hard feelings ;)
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NEW LIFE W0000TS~

Have a good day... Cheers =)

X

说 感觉
不只嗅觉 还有味觉
有 触觉 听觉

到 体会 都是误会
偶而约会
却 没有感觉

说 圆缺 从不妥协
玩玩另类
就 为爱 流泪

夹脚鞋 走遍世界
甚么是品味？ 是态度决定一切。。。

虚伪

撕裂

你怎么解释这些?

冷却

热烈

一個又一個

走了一個 忘了一個

才懂眼淚對自己最殘忍

笑著 不會不捨得

;

來了一個 愛了一個

只要確定感覺是真的

怕了 就當作是傷多一刻

這一個或許是對的人

Congratulations~

gratz gratz... u've finally made me let go..

祝福你!~


have a nice day brudders!~ =\

lols. interesting sight that i encountered...

w00t.. this afternoon... i felt quite bored and scared of feeling sad and depressed again... so i went cycling and find "myself" .. lols.. lame ==

then.. i cycle slow slow.. finally reached jared's house... after hanging out in his house for some time... we went to his mother's shop (teach beauty care de)... after i locked both of our bicycles.. i noticed something... there was two motorbikes that was parked near our bicycles.. the colours of those motorcycles match the colours of our bicycle...

these are the pictures...

and TRANSFORM!!!!!!!!!!



TA DA!~ aint that nice!?.. (...)

u changed so much... U changed from a good friend .. to a jerk... then to a motherfucker...

don't fuck with me muthafucka... better stop before i swing my fist into your face...

You think you will happy if u stopped thinking about the bad stuff... Let me tell u something... That's called ESCAPING FROM REALITY... and thats what MUTHAFUCKAS DO!

U actually made me sick... i feel so fucking sick when i hear ur name... i feel so fucking sick when i thought of your fucking face in my head... i feel so fucking sick with your new pattern...

You think your face is cool? think again... i want to step on your face with my smelly foot without a second thought...

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well... have a good day muthafuckas...

hmm?

hmm... this song.. makes me sad... makes me wanna break into tears...

but why... why cant i press the stop button...

tch...

林宥嘉 说谎

是有过几个不错对象
说起来并不寂寞孤单
可能我浪荡 让人家不安
才会 结果都 阵亡
我没有什麽阴影魔障
你千万不要放在心上
我又不脆弱 何况那算什麽伤
反正爱情不就都 这样

我没有说谎 我何必说谎
你懂我的 我对你从来就不会假装
我哪有说谎 请别以为你有多难忘
笑是真的不是我逞强

我好久没来这间餐厅
没想到已经换了装潢
角落那窗口 闻得到玫瑰花香
被你一说是有些印象

我没有说谎 我何必说谎
你知道的 我缺点之一就是很健忘
我哪有说谎 是很感谢今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不习惯

我没有说谎 我何必说谎
爱一个人 没爱到难道就会怎麽样
别说我说谎 人生已经如此的艰难
有些事情就不要拆穿

我没有说谎 是爱情说谎
它带你来 骗我说 渴望的有可能有希望
我没有说谎 祝你做个幸福的新娘
我的心事请你就遗忘

hmm my buddy came back from johor..

yep... i started talking to her... by the strangest way...
i was talking to another ppl... and then suddenly she comes in and support me...
i've won the discussion...

from that moment onwards... we're friends...
hahas.. she's quite "cute"... not face "cute"... its attitude "cute"...
She's thin like kayu... But many ppl wan kao her...
hahas.. but she's not my type...
she's a good friend tho... A GOOD BUDDY...

She's oso one of the most weird and complicated friends i've ever met...
we can chat any topic... and sometimes i will share my problems and sad moments with her...
We also sms with the weirdest method... nobody can understand our text msg...
she call this method "Buddy Sms Method"...
hahas.. since she went to study in johor... i din saw her much lately...
but we sometimes sms on the phone.. keep in touch.. we are so buddy... LOLS!

she looks like kid.. sometimes talk like one.. and abit lanC.. hahs but actually she's abit matured...
she even said that she think herself is rather a "tomboy"...

i think to myself... So this is a "true friend"... feels good... i like that sound...

happiness..

hmm hmm...

today, i think i dropped my happiness somewhere...
feel so damn down again... screw this feeling...

Hmm.. needa try find my happiness back...
question is... How... and Will i find it back?...

Complicated?.. tch... this world is complicated... and the truth is harsh


well... have a good day.. my dear friends..

just in the matter of time...

In the matter of "time"...
things will work out...
things will be ok..
things will be fine...

Just.. Don't think too much...

That's what i've learned...

Just remove the little voice in us... that's the demon in our heart...
it makes us sad... angry... jealous...
that aint good...


have a happy day...

L0ls~

its all ok...

kuz its a good day...

ignored all the bad things in my way...

i guess i finally found my way...

...
..
...

nope... im not ok.. im fucked up... retarted people all around me doing retarted things... oh... im not talking about my friends... so dont fucking tell ppl i write bad things about u on blogger...

insanity

my life... haiz... i wish i could just disappear...

if i disappear... maybe everyone will be more happy...

screw this feeling...

dear god... why wont you be my friend and.. come to me and take my hand...

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she's gonna leave soon... but he is still so stupid...
he havent noticed yet...
he didn feel regret yet...

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rain clouds covered my sky once again...
lets hope i can see that clear sky and hopefully.. a rainbow...


!@#$%^&*()_

15years and 167 days...

2years...

119days...

。。。

一壶漂泊浪迹天涯难入喉
你走之後酒暖回忆思念瘦
水向东流时间怎麼偷
花开就一次成熟我却错过

How's 'zat!

W00t... tommorow is Chinese New Year~ and also valentines day... w00t... chocolates and angpaos!

unfortunately... u aint gonna get any from me.. hahahs...

and today really lucky ! i got 50 in my angpau from my auntie ... why i say im lucky... because other ppl just get rm6.. rm8.. rm10.. rm20... rm 30... while I, ME, AKU, WATASHIWA! get RM50!!!... *bling bling bling*!

Dont be jealous, people!... it's JUST MY LUCK!

Screw this feeling...

man... i keep having this thought in my head...

that one day... if im gone... everybody will just cry and just forget about me the next day...
and then.. It is like i never existed in this world... everyone will just do what they wanna do... and probably wont speak of my name again...

everytime i think about this... for some reason... i cant seem to show that smiling face...
even thought some of you said that you'd remember me... but... this feeling just wont go away...

SCREW THIS FEELING..

i wan the happy "me" back.. please...

hello?

helo? is something wrong with you?.. do i look like a machine to you?
it's not that i have something against you... i just dont wana feel like a tool...

and IM NOT A TOOL!... im a human.. a friend... everytime u speak to me... feels like u only speak one thing "eh help me do this... help me do that..."

man... u need to learn how to do things yourself... and for your info...

I HATE CNY SONGS!
I HATE TO DOWNLOAD SONGS I DON LIKE!
I HATE THE SONGS THAT I DON LIKE TO BE HANGING AROUND IN MY HARD-DISK
I HATE THE WAY U ASKING ME TO DO STUFF... I FEEL LIKE A MACHINE EVERYTIME

ANGER

fuck lah... my mother no teach me then how? u beh song is it?
my hand very gatal ah... u beh song is it?
mind your own buisness lah... MCB... walao... if u speak one more word... u won be so happy edi...

your eyes cant see in the dark say lah... i wont turn off the light.. because i noe got a noob up there...
cant even see in the dark...

so what if my mother no teach me? ur mother teach u how call ppl MCB is it?
if ur mother so good.. then i oso learn lah... CBkia.. MCB... TNB...

zzz... go back to ur ayer tawar lah... i don care u is ayer tawar taiko or what f**king boss...
No matter what boss what taiko u are... u will only see me give you one mid finger...

EAT THIS FUCKER! o|o

SAD!!

sien lah... im sick edi... got runny nose... sore throat... headache... and abit cough... and abit fever edi...

the reason why i will get cold because i followed my auntie go shopping and came back 4oclock in the morning... !@#$%^& the next morning... straight get sick...

Hope i wont get H1N1 leh... hahahas!


this is not me... although i stick tissue into my nose.. but i dont look good as him xD

why love feels like 菊花茶 to me?

In the last post... i mentioned that love feels like 菊花茶 to me... why? hahas i tell you now lohs~

because... 菊花茶... 清淡... 带一点甜... 清香... 有一种温暖.. 很简单~

hehe... if u still don understand~ then very swt ler luh! if still don understand... 你有喝过菊花茶吗?!


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oh~ i found one 诗 that have some relation to that tea XD~
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"菊花茶诗"

小朵小朵地
浅黄浅黄地
淡淡淡淡地
轻漂在杯中
用干枯过的心
再次绽放出复活的信念
直到
把自己的本色褪去
才让人品味出
你那不畏秋霜的傲骨
却愿意无私地
化为茶道中的甘泉
在人们的齿颊留芳

noticed...

well... today a person called "uncle jeff" came to our school to give us a speech... in his speech... he talked about life... love.. and sex... after hearing his speech.. i noticed that i forgotten that this world is harsh... even love is dangerous now...

well.. in my mind... love is like 菊花茶(chrysanthemum tea)
if you tasted chrysanthemum tea before...
you will noe what i mean...

hahahha...

hahas... i've been posting some emo things on my blog now... just ideas that popped out in my head when i see something interesting... Most of these post contains abit "love love" thingy... for your info... just writing to make the post more "emo" bah...

Im not an "emo".. but... everyone has a little "emo" in them... and i wrote these post with the "emo" in me...

hahas... im goin to ply some silly games... see ya guys around...


u r welcomed to drop some comments

sometimes...

sometimes...
all of us are just too tired...
sometimes...
we just need to spend some time alone and rest...

sometimes..
we cant get something you want...
sometimes..
even if we get the things we want..
it wouldnt last forever..

sometimes..
we just want to be independent...
but sometimes...
we still need a shoulder to cry on...

sometimes..
we need reasons to do something...
but sometimes..
you just don't need reasons to love him/her..

i will just .. be me..

Tch...
Throw away all the worries..
Ignore those stupid ppl...
Leave that boring place...

From this point onwards..
I'll just be "me"
= Do what I like + Like what i do

Hmm..
i've got an idea...
I wish that i can just.. lose my memories..

Let my memories and "me"

Disappear
from this ---> World

and just Start Over

with a mind with no memories...

and let all of you.. to meet this person named "Calvin" again...

蔡健雅 - 若你碰到他 lyrics

08.若你碰到他
作詞：蔡健雅　作曲：蔡健雅

我的脆弱堅強　互相作戰
理性與感性　失去平衡感
不想讓自己　活在過去的遺憾
問宇宙　他是否還愛我嗎
這問題　早就有答案

若你碰到了　替我問候他
告訴他　我過得很美滿
已忘記他　已把淚水全部擦乾
若你碰到了　替我問候他
祝福他和他的另一半
不在乎他　不再愛也不再等待
就這樣吧　若你碰到他

愛　沒有絕對　雖曾經以為
我終於體會　愛不能倒退
該讓它頹廢　收起心碎

若你碰到了　替我問候他
告訴他　我過得很美滿
已忘記他　已把淚水全部擦乾
若你碰到了　替我問候他
祝福他和他的另一半
不在乎他　不再愛也不再等待
就這樣吧　若你碰到他


就這樣吧　若你碰到他

last 2 week.. i brought a kitten back home.. its a female.. she is so small and fragile... cant just leave her be...

But now... all my actions.. is all useless... she died this morning... when im at school...

me and my friends are still planning to take her to their house to ply... i guess i dont have the chance anymore...

sigh... it's all my fault.. i feel like i killed her... i feel like a killer now...

all of the things i did to protect her... feed her... resulted her death...


I'm just.. useless...

I'm.. sorry...

Sigh... How i wish i could just sit down quietly and just... sit there... for 10minutes.. 15minutes
Until i fall asleep... and wake up without having to worry about my homeworks and my life...

wish i could just lie down.. on a grassland.. and just feel the breeze... i wonder how it feels like...

i would like to know that feeling... yes i do...

ugh...

really not feeling well now...
part of the bad feeling is get from seeing other ppl's 臭脸。。。
part of the bad feeling is come from personal problems...

damn.. i need some sleep...
really feel stupid now... f**kin stupid...

每个人都会

爱是两人一张棉被
也是一人一瓶清水　都说对

爱是送一百枝玫瑰
也是让湿地开花蕊　就OK

人间的青草地　需要浇水
内心的花园就不会枯萎
把最甜最好的滋味 散播到东南西北

什麽比love love love love love更美
爱让人安心在梦中熟睡
Oh love love love love love 最美
美在每一个人都会

爱是让人感动流泪
也是停止制造伤悲　都答对

爱是为好朋友解围
也是为陌生人破费　就OK

爱肯付出的汗水 爱小王子的蔷薇
爱旅途上的兄弟姐妹 爱所有青山绿水
爱所有难忘约会 爱上对爱的体会

只有love love love love love最美
她会变成最安全的堡垒
什麽比love love love love love更美
美在只要用心都会学会

不用什麽只为　只要用心体会

爱让每人都有机会

wondrous...

hahas... friends are marvelous... they help u when u're in trouble...
they try to comfort u when u're sad...
they calm you down when u're angry...
they laugh with u when u're happy...
they are always by your side...

If u're bad in your studies... they tend to help you and be your study partner...
and together we strive...

But some friends like to kepoh other ppl's buisness...
they should know that " A hedge in between keeps friendships green "

Friends are not meant to last forever...
Who knows? maybe tomorrow one of your friends might be killed by a killer or die over a disease...
only god knows when they will go...
and that's why friends are so valuable...

So... I "LOVE" YOU, MY FRIENDS... (==)

aack pressure...

zzz... my brain says... get more tuition... study hard and try and get as many A's as you can...
my my body just won listen... i just want to lay on my bed and don't want to move anymore...

overall i like science... but now science branched into 3 subjects... chemistry, biology, physics...
i think i like chemistry and bio... but physics... physics is counted as science...
but why am i feeling like im learning maths when im learning physics...(i hate maths into the bones)

all the new terms... formulae... and that teacher that is so damn boring!!
But the one thing i like about physics is the physics tuition teacher, Mr Cheah...
He's anything but boring... his joke can be kinda lame but... I like his teaching method! XDD...

modern maths alone can bring me to hell... now that there's additional maths... im prompt to die..
AAAAAHHHH!

Die maths... die...

Well... im gonna go out cycling again... to feel the taste of "freedom" since i have been following a scheduled life...

1st day of school in 2010... form 4 life...

Everything went smoooothly in the morning... everyone is still relaxed and happy...

and this is the 1st time i felt really happy when i see my friends since PMR...

everything was ok...

Until it's afternoon....

Im superbly pissed off by someone ==...

ggaaaaaah!!!

suan liao... forgive and forget...