2009 is coming to an end.. T^T sobs sobs...

sad loh.. 2009 is coming to an end...
many things happened...
happy things...
bad things...
crazy things...
noob things... (lols?)

all that i have to say is... all of the following is something worth remembering...
very very very sad times...
super happy times...
fighting spiders...(childsplay ==)
chinese orchestras...
church activities...
CYBER CAFES! (w00t!)
skipping school XDD!!!
Sony PSP (lols)
My Bike (my half wife xDD)
my new phone (my babeh!)

and all my lovely.. cute... sien.. stupid.. friends...
i appreciate you guys for being my friends...
if we dont have chance to be in the same class together next year...

i wish that you can make new friends..
if we stopped talking to each other...

i wan u at least to think this when u see me...
"oh.. he's once my friend... and he's a funny one.." (lols...)
...
...
...
...
enough liao... dont talk sentimental stuff edi!...
ugh.. i feel uncomfortable when i feel sentimental.. XDD!!

why are you bombing me?

Lol... if your not in the good mood don come bomb me la... i noe you dont like him...
So? I'm just being myself... I'm not trying to be enemy of anybody... im just being a simple fren...

dang... u said everyone in life your always hurts you and shoot you...
and u never saw us beside u supporting u....
now when u bad mood come shoot me lah!?
say ppl always "bully" you... what the hell!? giv u middle finger lah!!

And she is not dying!... just leaving town to study...
This is not the last time you'd ever see her... PLEASE!
Its ok for u to be sad... everyone feels sad... but there's no need to cry...
MORON!! cry for wat...

And dont blame me for ruining your "plans"
I didn't invite the ppl u hate to ruin your brilliant "plans"
STUPID FOOL....

When u still have the chance... u donwan talk with her...
u say "i don have topic to start to talk"
It doesnt matter!!
Now... when she's about to leave... you need to use that "plan" to get close to her!?
what a failure....

So what if the ppl you hate got come along to that place!?
ignore him... if he interrupt u.. you diao him lah! stupid fool... MORONIC friend...

tch... i'm speechless about you... im started to feel sick by being your friend...

Randomize...

sigh...
life really sucks...
as i predicted...
After something good happen... something really bad will also happen...

Well..
My prediction came true...

if i like something...
what can i do to keep it?...
what can i do to own it?...

Aaack... i don't even know what i'm saying ><

五月天 知足 LYRICS

怎麼去擁有　一道彩虹　
怎麼去擁抱　一夏天的風
天上的星星　笑地上的人　總是不能懂　不能覺得足夠

如果我愛上　你的笑容　要怎麼收藏　要怎麼擁有
如果你快樂　不是為我　會不會放手　其實才是擁有

當一陣風吹來　風箏飛上天空　
為了你而祈禱　而祝福　而感動
終於你身影　消失在　人海盡頭　
才發現　笑著哭　最痛

那天你和我　那個山丘　那樣的唱著　那一年的歌
那樣的回憶　那麼足夠　足夠我天天　都品嚐著寂寞

當一陣風吹來　風箏飛上天空　
為了你而祈禱　而祝福　而感動
終於你身影　消失在　人海盡頭　
才發現　笑著哭　最痛

當一陣風吹來　風箏飛上天空　
為了你而祈禱　而祝福　而感動
終於你身影　消失在　人海盡頭　
才發現　笑著哭　最痛

如果我愛上　你的笑容　要怎麼收藏　要怎麼擁有
如果你快樂　再不是為我　會不會放手　其實才是擁有

知足的快樂　叫我忍受心痛
知足的快樂　叫我忍受心痛

satisfying results and a satisfying new phone..

ghood news... i've got 5A's in PMR
Bhaaad news... I also got a D for my chinese...

Went to school for chinese orchestra camp last tuesday...
It's okay... except for the time we train songs... my fingers are hurting because i hold the heavy instrument too long...
But when we play... it wuz awesome!! great time~ Fine memories~

At night... i chatted with my friends and played "cho dai di" secretly =p...
when i ply my 1st round... i got moderate hands... not very good.. but not bad too...
Then suddenly... i saw the chance of winning...
POOF!!
I WON!

isnt that cool? but later on when i played my 2nd round...
My hands started shaking... i dont feel cold or anything... but these hands are trembling!
it must be some proffesional player joined the game... make my hands shake haha~ (==)
in the end
I LOST~ T^T

then suddenly AJK came to check out on us... we are playing poker upstairs...
And upstairs is for the girls = boys cant go upstairs because its for GIRLS...
when he came... me and one of my fren tried to run down... but i realised we cant make it in time... so we sat on the staircase... pretending to be chatting...
He saw us... called us go back downstairs... i think he's just letting us go...

Okay back to the PMR results...
as i said i got 5 A's... and my family promised me dat they'll get a new phone for me if i get dat much...
Obviously they think i wont get more than 3A's... so guailan... KNNCB~ (jk)

But i didn't expect it to come this fast...
the phone arrived 1 hour after i said i wan it...
Boom dao...

Still need to get used to it and still got many function i dono... =p

the camp ended... and i need to go to work at my dad's shop again... so sien lerh!

sigh..sigh...sigh

Those who get 8A's or 6A's and above... Don't LanC... don come and tell me u're not satisfied and lecture me about im a fool because im so satisfied with "only" 5A's...

You're the lifeless person... Pmr doesnt mean anything... if u dont work hard u get 12 A1 oso no use...

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BY THE WAY~
MERRY X'MAS ~

and soon

A HAPPY NEW YEAR

messed up..

sometimes if u put too much effort into something... it's gonna be messed up...

a good example wud be my bike... i spent the week fixing old parts and upgrading it... now some of the new parts is not working the way it's suppose to be...

My bike pegs.. or 飞机铁 came right off when one of my friends jumped on my bike when i didn't notice... later on... i was informed that bike pegs is not for fetching ppl... it's real purpose is for doing BMX bike stunts... which mountain bikes cannot perform... sad... *cries*

when the bike pegs came off... it effected my bike rims.. its abit bent... causing the brakes to stop my wheels from spinning... gonna go change my rims again... sigh... hope this is the last time im going to spend my money to fix my bike =(




By the way... the picture above is not my bike... my bike not so cham de... if my bike is broken like dat.. the person riding it (ME) would not be able to update his blog right? ==

w00t

Yay~ finally~ i repainted my bike~ Now its in silver and black =x... better than its old look... My bike's old look is red with abit of black and some brown (stupid rust)...

After i painted my bike... i cycling oso got feeling one lerh!~ 有风 lerh!~ muahhaaahahaha~



Stupid TNB! if you continue to cut off the electricity and plug it back on again and again.. MY COMP IS GUNNA DIE!!!... MY PRECIOUS COMPUTER!! MY MOTHERBOARD IS DYING!!~ U HEAR ME?
(=.=)
../|\
.../\

dreams...

yesterday... i found a very interesting thing about our brains... It's called Lucid Dreaming... this is a method to make us fall asleep and "dream"... and when we're dreaming.. we can control the dream... It sounds kind of fun but... very hard to peform...

Yesterday... i laid on my bed around 8 o'clock and accidentally fell asleep... then i woke up at around 11.40... i realized i didnt turn off the lights... so i got up and switched it off... After that when i was laying on my bed (half asleep mode / blur blur mode)... i fell asleep while thinking of something i wanna do tomoro...

Then i woke up again... this time i feel my body very light... and i can jump very high... then i realized... i am "lucid dreaming"... everything felt so real... so clear... like reality =x... i started wandering around (in my dream)... then i went outside my house to find my bike... but i cant find it...(in my dream)

Then i think to myself "why would i need a bike... when i can run super fast without feeling tired?" (LOL!!) but just when i start to run... oops... came back to the real world lerh... i tried lucid dreaming again... but it was not so good...




well... dat was the clearest dream i ever had...

weekends... week.. ends...

This week.. Not bad..
dont love it... didnt hate it...

Just go with the flow..
Take it slow..

Recently... I got a bike...
an old bike from my cousin...
Its not very cool... some more got abit rusty
But overall.. It still works fine..
I can cycle without holding on the bar... and the bike can go on...
Maybe i'll take my bike go repaint someday...

Being independent... feels nice...
But being independent.. also feels tired...
Need to solo all the way...

Life is tough... But i'm tougher...

I wish my life is like my bike...
Can go on without falling even when im cycling without using my hands..

Normal day for a normal boy.. I guess =x

Recently.. i have been goin out cyling around town... with my sakai punya fren... ==...

Actually... we're just trying to find some tuition centres and register for next year =p...

Since most of the tuition centres are closed and we cant register... We cycled to the nearest cybercafe to ply since it's still too early to go home... xD

My skin actually got a little bit fair since i didn really go out recently... but now that i've been cycling around town... My skin become darker liao lerh... =x...

My PC i gonna get upgraded... hope it will be smoother than now =x

Creepy...

Lols... just now.. when i was on msn... Heewoi told me got one girl call him come ask me who is the person i like... i was like "hmm.. why wud he ask?" then he told me that that girl he mentioned "admires" me... then i thought "LOL>.<.. Great! now there's a girl that appeared outta nowhere say she admires me.. dats creepy"... like anyone would ask... i asked heewoi who she is... but heewoi told me that he cant reveal her identity...

Well... dats the 1st time i heard that some1 admires me... but.. something's not right =x

3 weeks left...

sigh... so fast lerh... 3 weeks more then it is time to say goodbye to the holidays...

Damn
This is the worst holiday i ever had!...

and oh...
PMR results is gonna come out soon
sigh...
Nervous leh...

Met a girl online...
I call her my big sister xD...
she's 8years older.. so old =P...
I wish my life was like hers...
Do what i want...
whenever i want...

wherever i want...

Quite down these days...
Feel bored until everything seems to be going in slow-motion...
Hate my job...
Hate the holiday of this year...
Oh well...
Just wait for christmas...
Hope it'll be fun...

Logic-less

Today.. im awfully pissed at certain someone... "he" asked me if i can help him this holiday because he's sick... "owh... sure.. why not.." thats wat i answered...

I worked for him for free (no salary)... but after awhile... he came to the shop and sat on his seat... i asked him.. why not stay home and rest... he said he need to pay the money for the stocks he ordered... that day... he paid the money...

The next day... he came again! so later on that night.. i told him... that i need to go school for some personal buisness... and i told him i was just an extra hand in the shop if he can go to the shop everyday...

So after i came home from school today... he called me to go to the shop... he asked me "i thought u only go to school on sundays... didnt i told u to stop going to school? With my sickness... u should help me out since i cant work"... WTF... he's lecturing me!... so i answered "i dint go school on saturday is because i need to work here! in your shop! i skipped many times... because of this work! Now.. i cant understand anything they're saying in school!"... "didnt i told u why i need you to come my shop to help me?!" he replied... "The reason i came out everyday to help you because u told me that u CAN'T work... and u MUST rest! and u are staying home!" i replied wit "beh song" attitude... "I everyday sit at home my back oso not comfortable edi... and i cant go take a walk because im still in healing period" he replied... "U said u sit all day not comfortable... U come shop oso sit whole day mah! U so mao dun! since u everyday come shop... i assume that i can at least take a one day rest..."

Then... *silence*... i have "won" the arguement...

If i see him come shop again i will tell him that i will QUIT THIS STUPID WORK!

My Little cousin's bday..

Aha... my 3years old lil cousin is finally turning 4!~ i took some really funny pictures...

Let's go~... by riding on a horse... or a... Rubber.. Horse..

These mean little suckaz...

Its time to blow the candle and... the attention is on the centre... On the centre.. Of the cake!~ The ultraman! every kid wants the ultraman...

This is the photo BEFORE we sang "happy bday song"
BEFORE


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.
.
.
.
AFTER
And this is the condition of the cake AFTER we sang the song...
POOF! Now you see it.. Now you don't...
Magic is everywhere!~
well... not really ==

In the end... One of the kids cried becoz he didnt get the ultraman... How cute is that?... He finally stopped crying after promised that on his next bday we will put a spiderman on his bday cake... ==... too cute lahs~

Victory X Defeat

张震岳&林芯仪 - 回到过去

时间它像是河流 慢慢的轻轻推送
有时候像是漩涡 很难静止而不动

开心的 伤心的
一辈子 能改变什麼 能相信什麼

游走在梦的尽头 也常常不时回首
人与人擦身交错 谁停留谁又远走

我曾经 犯的错

我曾经 留下的遗憾 就让它去吧

如果想要回到那过去

但是你我之间存在遥远的距离

试图去弥补破碎的缝隙

我学著不放弃

愿你牢记我曾经爱过你

因为有你我才学会相信爱情

关于过去的事就藏心底

未来依旧有你的回忆...

Hungry... *sobs*

dono why nowadays so hungry... wake up hungry... ate breakfast... after 2hours hungry liao... Ate lunch.. (this time eat many stuff) after 3hours my stomach start "growling" edi...

Normally i can last longer... i can eat breakfast then whole day no feel hungry... but now 2hours later then hungry~ WTF!?

ROAR!! IM SO HOONGRIEEE!!

>.< bad week...

lol... nowadays i tio sick le... in the first few weeks... i oni have coughs nia.. *cough* *cough*... but after a few days... cough until sore throat... sore throat until got abit selsema... and yesterday cold until got headache ><... and still got... headache until wan vomit liao!~
until today morning that i decide that i need to go see doctor... if not i cannot stand lerh~ haha... take a note and write this down... when u tio cough... please don go buy fried stuff to eat liao! ><... drink more water... and get decent amount of sleep... so you won't suffer like me T.T... Yesh! tomoro i sick nonid go work... weeee~ (=.=) AT LAST! i can sleep until whenever i want edi!~ (for just one day =\)

...

tonight... my insanity level is quite high... cant stop thinking of bad things now... sometimes ppl tell me... love is the key to calm down... but i think love is the cause that made my insanity level to rise.. ==

"The heart feels a mixture of passion, lust, fear, sin, love, worry, desire, unpredictable behavior, strong overwhelming emotion...is this the mere insanity of the heart? It seems like the true feeling of love tends to give us all a sense of insanity which takes over the mind, body, and spirit. When one truly loves someone they tend to feel completely obligated. They become blind to the world around them only seeing the image of their hearts desire. They ignore truths and push away anything bad." <> i got this paragraph from the internet...

hmm... my mind is probably like dat now... =| i dono what is right to do and what's not ler...

My Father's surgery fees...

lol... my father today come back home edi... he came back wearing a NIKE brand cap!! HAHA... while there is a big bandage on his head... ==

I saw an envelope on the table... and inside it... i found a receipt... guess wat... 20thousand dollar just flew out of my father's bank account!! haha~~ but i guess its all worth it now that he's OK

see ya later... school life...

Even if the school is still open... i cant go school anymore... im forced to work at my father's shop... So im gonna say bye bye to my friend in school here... =(

In the meantime... Play facebook game!! xD... you all can also find me in dragonica online... MiNiMoNdO is my in game name xD...

Haiz... today my shop not even one customer... SIEN DAO~~ i sit in front the computer ply dragonica ply until up level oso nobody come in haiz

See u guys when school opens =D

cut ? or dont cut?

sien... my hair kind of thick liao.. but i dono wan cut or not... if cut i scare the stylist cut until so ridiculously short... if no cut... look abit big headed pulak

Ahaha... i wan a hairstyle like this one
But Impossible... school won't allow such long hair... SAD! =(.... perhaps i shud find a more suitable and short one... hmmm... BY THE WAY... the man in this picture is Jay chou's hairstylist leh!... He's also an actor...

Maybe i shud bring this guy de photo and show my hairstylist... tell him i wan shorter version de xD!

No freedom...

sigh... there's nothing to do nowadays... since i came back from KL... im forced to follow my grandfather to my father's shop to work... man... im not sure its even called work... there' only about 10 customers that come into the shop each day... all i do is sit there all day long... some of the customer dont even buy anything... they just walked in and walked out... Conclusion = i can even take a 1hour nap and there will be no customer comin' in...

I told the adults that i wanna go work at "swiss garden" at damai laut... and they give me many reasons... say im not old enough... i need to be 16... blah blah blah! i said i'll be asking my father... bt then they said... " Your father just had brain surgery... you cant call him"... but later... they told me to sweet talk my father on the phone to make him "happy"... everyone just say.." make your father happy.. dont make him feel pressured"... Its all about HIM!.. why doesnt anyone cares what i want for myself? This is the same as being GROUNDED!

swiss garden offer RM28 a day... but my grandfather dint giv me a cent working in his shop... $#$%#%$%$@%@!!!

Life...

Life... what is life... when we were born into this world... when we were kids... we never face a problem seriously, because the adults always take care of it and never let us interfere... and we always complain that they never listen...

But now...we realized that they were just over-protecting us... but we cant be kids forever... we prompt to fall in the process of growing up... but we need to learn how to get up again... i thought living is easy, and those who jump down from buildings are crazy... Maybe im crazy, because life gets harder and harder... i cant imagine my future if i cant get a decent job...

sometimes i wish we can just stay young... ply when we like it... play where we like it... free.. without anything to frown and worry about...

the sound of the heavy rain hitting on the roof... dats one of the reason i like the rain... sound of the rain washes the other noises in my head... and 舒解压力...

When its raining... it feels like the cloud is trying to make me feel better... feels like the cloud is crying with me...

Back from Kl and genting edi...

lol... 3days passed so fast... waseh... got abit sad when come back...
I saw many crazy roller coasters and rides at genting highland... never got a chance to play... cuz i pokai after buying a tropicana life backpack... xD cost me RM89.90... straight become the poor guy...

=|

"Can't take my eyes off of you, 'til i find someone new" "The Blower's Daughter" By Damien Rice

For all those ppl that make my day into SHIT!

I told you i cant do it... but you insist dat i can do it...
In the end, You are the disappointed and I become the disappointment...
Next time, when i tell you... "I don't want to play because I'm not good at it" Believe it...
If i'm good at it... if i had talent on dat... i'd surely kicked all of your asses out of my buddy list...
Why u guys needa ply when the games oni make us into enemies... One word, "Lanjiao"

And you... I dont know what you think, whether is good or bad... i dono
I guessed many times... But i still dont know.. its futile...
Why dont just give it up... stay out of my sight i no need take my sad face out...

And you... Stay out of other ppl's buisness... If u stick your nose into the my buisness... i will stick my Leg into your @ss...

And you... don't act bossy, You have that big body but u are not using it... instead ur just using that small brain to order me? IF YOU want me to do some work... you can just ask politely.. i will surely help you happily... but you use point the canon in ur F*king mouth at me and order me around... and stood there and just watch and "stay cool"... I tell you this... You are not abit of a f*king cool...

It is because people like you guys, that WE HUMANS grow MIDDLE FINGERS! so we can point it at you when we see you...

(eh don't simply guess is who wor, if think you really know but ur not sure... don simply tell ppl. If you really know, who cares what you will tell dat person...)

Random subjects ( Wednesday 4.11.09)

sigh... my schoolmates have all gone to taiping today... i decided not to go... I need some rest after those hustle and bustle i went thru this year... i guess i'll just stay home, even if it means immissing a whole load of fun... ><


I took this picture just outside of my house... My lil' garden (its just a bunch of wild grass) xD... haha im so pro... this picture is not bad... for a 3.2 megapixel camera!


actually... its just the laksa noodle... haha i guess it's too hot for you to handle xD!
(and he doesnt always look this stupid... he has some good looks... though i hate to admit it ><)
What is my dog doing!? is he feeling too hot down there?... LOL! i guess he wants a good air circulation xD!

The last picture was hillarious! Funny! LOLS!!!

Feels abit "off"

my life de schedule and routine feels abit "off" (blur blur... luan luan..) since i have nothing to do... i have been sitting in front of my comp for some time liao... normally i wake up will go brush teeth 1st... wash face and eat breakfast... Now, i wake up straight walk to comp room and start messin' with it... playing comp with blur blur de feeling... my face feels stiff becoz no wash... and my mouth with "fresh breath"... xD... since i stopped doing the things at the right time... i got this really messed up feeling... Makes my day feels like a dream... hahax

then.. i realized this feeling make me abit sick... straight go take a cool bath and take abit medication since im also feeling abit sick.. After doing those things and takin' some rest im feeling JUICED UP!~

Turn ON the speaker
Play the musics
Start the games~
Start my ownage! xD

the still 9 days left until the day i can go to KL and Genting Highlands with my homies~ i can't wait.. wahoo~ ><

Lyrics : If I Ain't got you - Alicia Keys

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what’s within
And I been there before but that life’s a bore, so full of the superficial

Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby, if I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I ain't got you, yeah

Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young
(You know) Some people need three dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no-one to share with, no-one who truly cares for me

Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby, if I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby, if I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I ain't got you, yeah

If I ain't got you with me baby, ohh, ooo
Say nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby x2

Tag 8_by Whitney

at 30.10.09

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我的大名：何光耀
我的生日：5th of september
誰傳給你的： Whitney
說出五個好朋友：Jared, Ren, Douglas, Jonathan, DingZai etc.
生日想要得到什麼禮物：SE W705, A Bike
近期開心的是：Hanging out with friends in cosplay
近期壓力大的是： PMR result, worrying about my future
未來想做什麼：Traveler, Chef, Own a international cybercafe company
有沒有喜歡的人：Got... But no chance wor... ><
同學會要回去找老師嗎： Never
跟誰出去最幸福： Best friends.. brothers..
如果你的兩個好友吵架了： would apologize after couple of days
跟情人出去最想去哪： Everywhere...
聖誕節要做啥： star gazing... attend a christmas party
最想跟誰過聖誕節： All of my friends and bros...
有沒有起床气： Frequently xD
有幾個兄弟姐妹： Im the only one
最喜歡的一首歌(女生的)：If I Ain't Got You - Alicia Keys
最喜歡的一首歌(男生的)： Breakin' - The All- American Rejects
喜歡什麼顏色： white , black
上廁所會不會先沖水： See if it is clean 1st
愛不愛我： No idea~ ><
喜歡男生還是女生： Girls (duh?)
最想大聲說什麼： I WILL LIVE AND MOVE ON!!! WAAHOOO~
半夜敢不敢自己上廁所： No need scare de ma... ==
上廁所會不會脫褲褲：废话 ==
誰很欠打： Guailan ppl... those who purposely donwan reply me
現在很迷什麼：Facebook-ing... Blogging... PSP( i tink so)
睡相很差： Still OK gua
現在的時間：2035 hour ( 8.35 PM)
是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人：Maybe...
體重多少：56
今天天氣：Hot~
你懷孕了嗎：How can a boy be pregnant?
你若中樂透最想做什么： Bring my friends and go travel...
大學生一定要玩的活動： 真心话，大冒险
如果能為彩虹添加一種顏色你選 ：The colour i want is already in the rainbow xD
你相信爱情会永远吗： I always believe there's always an end to everything
But sometimes, I just don't want it to end...
现在的你穿什么颜色的衣服：Brown+Orange with Blue Music Notes
放棄一個人會很難嗎： Not very hard... 时间会搞定一切
最想去的国家： Kyoto, Japan



What else? i dono wan write wat le... whitney, if i need to add something... tell me, i will edit

Sigh... sigh... sigh...

walao i wan scold bad words edi lah! !@$!%^@$@^**!@##@!#

My father say he plan wan go take surgery for his sickness in next month... dat's not the bad part... the bad part is i need to follow my grandpa out to his shop to do his NOOB job... if it wasn't for my grandfather's help... he cant even support our little family of three...

And he still wants ME to continue his NOOB JOB!! WAARGHH! !@#@$#@%#% i hope he gets over his sickness and take back his job in overseas... so i nonid see his stupid face and listen to his stupid lectures... if he want me to go to work... at least let me have a decent job to get decent supply of money per month... But he sent me to his NOOB shop instead and expect me to do it for FREE!! diao la!! PHUCK DAT MAN!!!

Enough of the routine already. Go on, have an adventure, - do what you always wanted deep within your heart. Do what brings you alive, and the universe will open doors where there were only walls.

there's nothing perfect in this world

we're not perfect... means we're not 100 by ourself
actually u can just think that you're a 50 yourself... and the one u like/love/whatever is another 50... so that when you guys get together... it will be 100 again... in other words... Perfection...

You guys get wat i mean? Lolx

just drop the thought...

this morning... my bad thoughts started coming back to me... all the stupid questions... Do they hate me? Am i really that stupid? do they really take me as their friend? or maybe im all alone frm the beginning... sigh... i really need to get over this fast...

These thoughts bring headaches... chest pains... stress into my life... turning it into something sad... haha... i would be in trouble if i was the old me... but now im able to get rid of those thoughts... All that matters is that i am still alive and who cares what those ppl think about me... but sometimes i cant help to fall into depression...

gahaha... there is always a few questions that i ask myself when i feel down... Am i living in the real world? What purpose am i living for?

Haha... everytime i just draw a new face.. and smile... get over it... live with it... But, i really dont know when will i fail to do that... And what will happen when that happens

Song : Breakin' Artist : The All-American Rejects

Hold on tight
Wrap your arms around me til your knuckles are burning white
All your tears
Couldn’t match the bitter taste of all these wasted years

You take take
Everything that wasn’t even yours
Wait wait
You don’t got a hold of me anymore

(Chorus)
In a clear view there’s a silhouette
And I watch you and I can’t forget
Knew we were done when you locked that door
Yeah I figured it out now
Breaking’s what the heart is for

When I see you in a silhouette
And you hold close
Do you feel regret
Keeping me down when I hit that floor
And I figured it out girl
Breakings what your heart is for

For so long
I’ve had to bite my tongue but what’s the point if the feelings gone
I turn my head
Learned I only see some memory but all I see is red

Don’t don’t
Say it didn’t happen that way
I won’t won’t
Believe another word that you say

(chorus)
In a clear view there’s a silhouette
And I watch you and I can’t forget
Knew we were done when you locked that door
Yeah I figured it out now
Breaking’s what the heart is for

When I see you in a silhouette
And you hold close
Do you feel regret
Keeping me down when I hit that floor
And I figured it out girl
Breakings what your heart is for

Yeah breaking’s what your heart is for
Yeah breaking’s what your heart is for

And not a soul sleeps
Another heart skips a beat
It’s every note that you wrote and I hope that you choke on the lines
You’re wasting my time, another heart beats tonight

(chorus)
In a clear view there’s a silhouette
And I watch you, no I’ll never forget
Knew we were done when you locked that door
Yeah I figured it out now
Breaking’s what the heart is for

When I see you in a silhouette
And you hold close
Do you feel regret
Keeping me down when I hit that floor
And I figured it out girl
Breakings what your heart is for

Yeah breaking’s what your heart is for (X4)

photos

wahaha my bed during PMR


haiz now holiday sien... play PSP oso sien

Amen by Tank

請賜給我一顆不會 熄滅的星
請賜給我一朵不被 淋濕的雲
請告訴我的眼睛 再等一下就是黎明
請別笑我 每天都要 跟你談心

請賜給我一顆不會 受傷的心
請賜給我永遠用不完的勇氣
如果還能說下去 請讓我在這黑夜裡
相信明天 一覺醒來 是個好天氣

我不要飛來的運氣 也不用比別人榮幸
只求當我在谷底 還有力氣 疼痛和哭泣
荊棘中還能辨認來時的腳印

我不求變成個奇跡 也不用開創天或地
只求我最迷茫時 還能找到 最初的自己
如果我痛到必須要閉上眼睛 就看見你

原來每一顆星熄滅 才會再亮
原來每一朵雲濕透 天才放晴
原來一顆心受傷 是為了要更有勇氣
原來勇氣 因為失去 才有了意義

我不要飛來的運氣 也不用比別人榮幸
只求當我在谷底 還有力氣 疼痛和哭泣
荊棘中還能辨認來時的腳印

我不求變成個奇跡 也不用開創天或地
只求我最迷茫時 還能找到 最初的自己
如果我痛到必須要閉上眼睛 就看見你

流過的淚留下運氣 受過的傷都很榮幸
下一次跌落谷底 就該知道 躺下看山頂
何不替眼睛謝謝所有的風景

我存在就是個奇跡 你為我創造天與地
你讓我不斷迷路 直到找到 真正的自己
原來只要我能看見我的真心
就看見你

haa... this song is nice... all of ya shud try it... haha this song can make you feel that your life has more meaning to it...

Eh!? there is a trip to KL and Genting Highlands organized by the volleyball club... anybody wan go mahs? its 3days and 2nights in total... only need to pay RM155 (very cheap liao lahs)... if you pay extra RM40 u can ply indoors and outdoors at genting... you go dere buy yoself need 54 leh... you buy here more good lah! haha...

i've been staying in my house for so many days... there's nth i can do except listen to music... play psp 0.o... watch boring tv shows... and ply comp... SO SIEN AAAH! everyday sit there wait ppl sms me... wait til so long stil nobody chat... haiz..

Finding ppl to sms me to talk about some silly topics!!! haiz... tell me if yor interested... ><

Exam week

ah... exams... the thing that used to test all the things you've learned and help you move forward and hopefully get you a job... NOT!
fucking waste of papers and sends students into deep pressure... I f***kin hate exams!

i took some random picture since i was bored last time ... since im also bored now, i guess ima upload some photos!

a photo of my spectacles and the entrance slip...

lol... my friends kena halau when they went to cybercafe after the geography paper since they are still wearing school pants and shoes... and we ran so hard to reach there! fucking waste of energy...

Lalala... listen to some songs... enjoy life... and chat wit gals! (optional) LOL!

Pieces

I'm here again,
A thousand miles away from you.
A broken mess,
Just scattered pieces of who i am.
I tried so hard,
Thought i could do this on my own.
I've lost so much along the way.

Then I see your face,
I know I'm finally yours.
I find everything,
I thought I lost before.
You call my name,
I come to you in pieces,
So you can make me whole...

I've come undone,
But you make sense of who I am
Like puzzle pieces in your eyes...

And I see your face,
I know I'm finally yours,
I find everything,
I thought I lost before,
You call my name,
I come to you in pieces,
So you can make me whole...

I tried so hard, (so hard)
I tried so hard,

Then I see your face,
I know I'm finally yours,
I find everything,
I thought I lost before,
You call my name,
I come to you in pieces,
So you can make me whole...
So you can make me whole...

another rainy day

wednesday... still raining... i decided not to go school cuz there aint nothing to do...
Its raining cats and dogs and i like it... i like it when it rains... and i like to go to PC bunks and play... but if its raining, how am i suppose to go to cybercafe? haha i managed to get there when the rain stopped for a while...

Lol... my friends ditched school and came to the cybercafe too... OH~ all the shooting games... left 4 dead, call of duty, and Crysis. all very SIEN la... but its still better than being at home and staring at the ceiling...

LOL douglas is playing Crysis and busting korean ass...

Fock la... the fucking noob chun keat tagged along... i hate him... i beh tahan his patten... and he's a feeder... one word la... NOOB!

And hell... i was soakin' wet... we walked back when its still raining... its been a long time since i last been in the rain... Its good to have the feeling of rain falling on your skin once in a while...

All this time... we tried to make ourselves become better... because we saw our peers have better grades than us, wearing better clothes, eating better meals, living a better life... But such jealousy is not needed...
Because you are perfect as you are.

God doesn't create faulty life. No. Everything created by God is perfect, and so are you. So stop driving yourself mad... with endless ways to improve, and just accept the glory of your being as is.

Tuesdays...

oh~ tuesdays... better than mondays and its a good day... looks like its a rainy tuesday today...

school reopened yesterday, but my writing worsened during the holidays... so my homeworks are abit messy >.<... well, im getting over my sadness these few days by seeing things in a better way and living my life with more joy, i actually became like this after i saw a quote that says " dont just take a walk on the street, feel the breeze... dont just listen to music... enjoy every beat and melody in it"... and this quote brought my "cool" back into my life...

and the best part is... i wont feel sudden chest pains or "heart" pains when i see "her"... i guess my "heart" is finally healing... actually i envy those who havent fall in love... they live their lives to the fullest and live with only one reason, that is for themselves or to have fun with their peers... and i was once like that... and i think im becoming like that again...

you know? the girls that you like or love may bring you happiness into your life... but maybe, someday, they will switch that happiness with pain when they decided to leave you...

To those who are still single... cherish and enjoy it... LONG LIVE BACHELORSHIP!

Lolx ><